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released July 1, 2012

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Track Name: begin
G D7
i've been down this road
more times than i can count
i've done things i'm ashamed of
and i never shut my mouth

C G D7
i'm always so quick to lose it
but you don't seem to mind a bit

G C
and tho i'm scared i'm
trying to let you in
and tho it's scary i
think it's time to begin

D7
i think it's time to begin
oo oo oo

G D7
i've been told all the sweet words
many times before
and i have said them, too
as well as many more

C G D7
but the words we said were never true
i hope it will be different with you

G C
and tho i'm scared i'm
trying to let you in
and tho it's scary i
think it's time to begin

D7
i think it's time to begin
oo oo oo

G C
and tho i'm scared i'm
trying to let you in
and tho it's scary i
think it's time to begin

D7
i think it's time to begin

G
i think it's time to begin
Track Name: running blind
F Dm Bb F

life is messy
and i'm a wreck
people ask me if i'm
better yet

i'm not charming
and i'm not smooth
people blame my failure
on my youth

i am lost and
i don't mind
i have always
been left behind

i don't get it
and i'm still fine
i am so used
to running blind

Bb F x 2

F Dm Bb F

i am petty,
obsolete
throw me over with
bricks tied to my feet

i will sink down
to the ocean's floor
and you won't have to
deal with me any more

i am mixed up
and i don't know
what you want and
what you don't

i'll never get it
but i'll survive
i have always been
running blind

Bb F

and i'm running, i'm running, i'm running to you
i'm running, i'm running, i'm running to you

F Dm Bb F

but i am messed up
and i can't see
what it is you
want from me

Bb F

so i'm running, i'm running, i'm running from you
i'm running, i'm running, i'm running from you

F Dm Bb F

i am mixed up
and i don't know
what you want and
what you don't

i'll never get it
but i'll survive
i have always been
running blind

Bb F

so i'm running, i'm running, i'm running,
running, i'm running, i'm running,
running, i'm running, i'm running,
running, i'm running, i'm running,

F Dm Bb F

i am mixed up
and i don't know
what you want and
what you don't

i'll never get it
but i'll survive
i have always been
running blind

i have always been running blind
Track Name: wrong
Em C G D7

you can have your opinions
but i won't agree with them
and it's fine if you think i'm wrong
cuz being different isn't a sin

but i won't stand for your bullshit
and you are sorely wrong
if you think that i'll just take it
i'm gonna take you on

on, on, on

Am D7 Em
i'm not saying you're a bad person
except you are
i think it's time you learn your lesson
now it starts

aah
aah

Em C G D7

you're afraid of my type
and you just can't stand
that i am right
and your logic can't withstand

and, and, and

you are so miserable
and sometimes i pity you
til i realize you're able
to change the things you do

but you don't
and you won't
you'll never pull through

you won't
you don't
you refuse

ah (improv)

Am D7 Em
i'm not saying you're a bad person
except you are
so maybe i think you're a bad person
because you are

aah
aah

Em C G D7

you can have your opinions
but you're wrong
wrong
wrong
wrong
Track Name: oh no
D D7 G Em
oh you know that i miss you
and you know that i love you
but i don't think you understand how much it hurts

when i know you are all alone
and i am stuck at home
when i could be there with you instead

G
oh no
Em
oh no

D D7 G Em
remember our first kiss?
we were so nervous
meeting you outside
you held my hand i nearly cried

sleeping in your arms
life just felt so warm
i pulled you towards me
i hope you know that i was happy

D D7 G Em
oh you know that i miss you
and you know that i love you
but i don't think you understand how much it hurts

when i know you are all alone
and i am stuck at home
when i could be there with you instead

G
oh no
Em
oh no
G
oh no
Em
oh no

D D7 G Em
kissing and breath slows
so shy we nearly froze
moving in secret
the walls were thin we almost blew it

remember our last kiss?
no time to be self conscious
one last kiss i had to go
Am
it was so hard not to cry oh no…

Em
oh no
D7
oh no

D D7 G Em
remember our first kiss?
we were so nervous
meeting you outside
you held my hand i nearly cried

remember our last kiss?
no time to be self conscious
one last kiss i had to go
Am
it was so hard not to cry oh no…

D D7 G Em
oh you know that i miss you
and you know that i love you
but i don't think you understand how much it hurts

when i know you are all alone
and i am stuck at home
when i could be there with you instead

D
remember our first kiss…?
Track Name: try for you
Bb Eb F
"don't just assume
that i'll do you wrong"
i heard these words one day
now they're in a song

Bb Eb Bb F
i once fell for a boy
oh i thought he would be
the kindest and sweetest to me

Bb Eb Bb Eb Bb F
but he had other plans
and with my heart in his hands
he destroyed me with brutal honesty

F Eb Bb
so forgive me if i
am uncertain, it's true
though i'm not over the past
i will try for you

F
for you

Bb Eb Bb F
but I once fell for a boy
i let my heart drift out to sea
cuz i thought he would rescue me

Bb Eb Bb Eb Bb F
but i didn't understand
and nothing went as planned
he left my heart in the debris

F Eb Bb
so forgive me if i
am uncertain, it's true
though i'm not over the past
i will try for you

just forgive me if i
am lost cuz i know
though it's all in the past
sometimes it's hard to let go

F
to let go

F Eb Bb
so forgive me if i
am uncertain, it's true
though i'm not over the past
i will try for you

Bb Eb F
so i won't assume
that you'll do me wrong
your words touched me today
now they're in a song
Track Name: spinning
Em A7 Am7

i am going on a rampage of the heart
and none of you fuckers can tell me when to start
i am taking control
i am standing on my own

i have always been reluctant to get hurt
and i was not the type to play in the dirt
but this is not a game
and i will not be ashamed

G6 A7 Am7 Em

cuz the world starts spinning and it wont stop spinning
everything is moving nothing is true and
i don't understand the difference between
the words you say and the words you mean

i
i gotta keep moving along
i
gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta
i gotta gotta gotta be wrong

Em A7 Am7

twenty years and i still don't know how to live
people told me life's about what you can give
but i don't have much right now
and i don't know when i will

G6 A7 Am7 Em

cuz the world starts spinning and it wont stop spinning
everything is moving nothing is true and
i don't understand the difference between
the words you say and the words you mean

cuz my world is spinning and it never stops spinning
everything is moving nothing is true and
i can't understand the difference between
the words they say and the words they mean

i
what the fuck am i supposed to do
i
gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta
i gotta gotta do something new

A7 Am7
[improv]

G6 A7 Am7 Em

cuz the world starts spinning and it wont stop spinning
everything is moving nothing is true and
i don't understand the difference between
the words you say and the words you mean

cuz my world is spinning and it never stops spinning
everything is moving nothing is true and
i can't understand the difference between
the words they say and the words they mean

i
i'm gonna move to my own song
i
don't give a fuck if i do it wrong
Track Name: pop song
C F G

i'm gonna write a pop song
and it's gonna be really loud
i'm gonna write a pop song
using the chords that everybody knows

i'm gonna write a pop song
about some guy i barely know
talk about how we go clubbing
even tho i barely ever leave the house

i don't even know him
but he is super hot
i'll leave my number in this song
in case he forgot

look at all these pictures
i took with my smart phone
memories of parties
for when i feel alone

i'm gonna talk like ke$ha
and you're gonna fucking deal with it
sound like i'm a total druggie
so everybody can talk their shit

read about my life in magazines
cuz you can't get one of your own
i'm the envy of the party
till they find out all my cash is blown

where's my fucking limo
i thought i payed that bitch
maybe i should go home
and pretend i'm filthy rich

but think of all the parties
that i would miss
cuz i could write songs about them
and they'd be fucking hits

F G C G F
here is the part
where i pretend this song is full of emotion
here is the part
where the crowd makes waves like the ocean
here is the part
where you auto-tune the fuck out of my voice
[improv]

i'm gonna write a pop song
and you're gonna fucking like it
Track Name: for your love
C G
i kiss your lips and i
hold my tongue
i can't believe am i
really the one?

Am Em
i don't want to ruin the moment
so tho i'm lost i won't show it

G D Em C
am i even real
am i really here
is it all a dream
will it disappear?

i don't understand
why you would ever chose me
but i'll pretend i do
so hopefully i can


C Am G Em
feel a little more real
or feel anything at all
this is so surreal
it's to late not to fall for your love

C G Am Em x3
C G Am D

C G
so pull me in while you
call my name
i hope you know my heart is
yours to claim

fingers touch and slowly
i breathe in
this is where you and
i begin

Am Em
please don't ever change this moment
we are lost and we both know it

G D Em C
everything is real
and you are here with me
it won't disappear
it's not a dream

now i understand
how you fell for me
my heart is yours
and soon we'll be

C Am G Em
just a little more real
we could be anything at all
and nothing is concealed
G
cuz i've fallen for your love...
Track Name: this time
Bb, F, Eb, Cm
It's been a long time since I
Have taken you here
And I'm not sorry
It's been a long time coming
But finally I'm ready
To take you here

I know what you're thinking
That it'll all be fine
And that I will swallow my pride
Just like all the other times

Eb, F, Bb, Cm
But tonight I'm throwing all away
I'm never coming back
No, no
And tonight the bridge is burning
And I'm leaving you

Bb, F, Eb, Cm
It's been a long time since you
have listened to me
and you don't seem sorry
it's been a long time coming
and i am so ready
to duke it all out

you don't know what i'm thinking
but i'll tell you now
and if you think we'll be alright
well, shit's about to go down

Eb, F, Bb, Cm
Cuz tonight I'm throwing all away
I'm never coming back
No, no
And tonight the bridge is burning
And I'm leaving you

Eb, F, Bb, Cm
Cuz tonight I'm throwing all away
I'm never coming back
No, no
And tonight the bridge is burning
And I'm leaving you
Track Name: work
G G6 D7 G
why are we
so busy
all the time
seven days a week

our days are full
are we that dull?
every day
we turn more gray

G C
cuz i miss you when you're gone
and you're always gone so long

G G6 C
cuz all we ever do is work work work
all we ever do is work work work
all we ever do is work work work
whoa work work work work work work

G G6 D7 G
i miss you
what should i do?
our hearts both shake
you miss me too

these nights are long
and tho i'm strong
it hurts my heart
when we're apart

G C
cuz i miss you when you're not here
why won't distance disappear?

G G6 C
but all we ever do is work work work
all we ever do is work work work
all we ever do is work work work
whoa work work work work work work

all we ever do is work work work
all we ever do is work work work
all we ever do is work work work
whoa work work work work work work

all we ever do is work work work
all we ever do is work work work
all we ever do is work work work
whoa work work work work work work

whoa work
Track Name: choice/voice
G Em D7 C
in the hospital with your new born kid
but you don't want to look at it
the father is a man who abused you

when you called the police they said you were to blame
you pleaded for help but they weren't listening
they just asked you how short your skirt was

G C D7
did you know that some people don't have a choice
even tho that's what america's for
that's why we went to war (for independence)
to give us a choice

G Em D7 C
for nine months you walked with shame
fearing your child and fearing the blame
who do you hate most - you or him or it?

you couldn't bear the weight, you wanted to quit
but the religious cults outlawed it
so now you're required to be reminded every day

G C D7
did you know that some people don't have a choice
even tho that's what america's for
that's why we went to war (for independence)
to give us a choice

G Em D7 C
not a girl or a boy, you're in between
you've known you were odd since the age of thirteen
but nobody wants to recognize you

when you walk to school, you're filled with fear
your best friend is no longer here
he couldn't handle all the things they did

G C D7
did you know some people don't have a voice
when it comes to it, hir, ze, xe or them
when did majority rule mean there are no exceptions
to what is the norm?

G Em D7 C
routine forms don't recognize you
which gender bathroom can you walk in to?
and you're the butt of every shemale joke

no one takes you seriously
they all seem to think your problems are funny
either that or they feel disgust

G C D7
did you know some people don't have a voice
when it comes to it, hir, ze, xe or them
when did majority rule mean there are no exceptions
to what is the norm?

did you know that some people don't have a choice
even tho that's what america's for
that's why we went to war (for independence)
to give us a choice

did you know some people don't have a voice
when it comes to it, hir, ze, xe or them
when did majority rule mean there are no exceptions
to what is the norm?
Track Name: do i love you
f#m c#7

you don't love me like you think you do
would you cry if i said we're through?
do i love you?
well, i think i do

you don't love me like you pretend to
you have tricked your own heart through and through
do i love you?
i don't think i do

but when i'm with you
i think i do

you think you love me but you're not prepared to
we say we're honest but that's not the truth
do i love you?
well, i wonder, too

you think you love me, but i wish you knew
you are avoiding all of my clues
do i love you?
i doubt i do

but when i'm with you
i act like i do

your love is something i wish i could undo
your love is doomed to be untrue
do i love you?
well, you want me to

your heart is something i can't break into
your heart's misguided i can't get through
do i love you?
i wish i knew

but when i'm with you
it feels like i do
Track Name: understand
Dm7 Dm F Am7

i am a loser
i am a sap
i'll wait till forever
to get you back

i watched you chase him
i watched you lose
my world is turning
and i feel so used

Dm Am7
i waited all my life
i waited all this time

Bb Dm
I will never understand
why my heart leans to you
i will never understand
what you want me to do

Am7 Dm
i am wasted on you

Dm7 Dm F Am7

i am moving
but the pace is too slow
my chest is imploding
i need to let go

i can't stand this
not a moment more
i will hit you to the ground
and leave you floored

Dm Am7
i'm making a brand new life
i'm recovering my lost time

Bb Dm
but I will never understand
why my heart leans to you
i will never understand
what you want me to do

my mind is set, though i'm a wreck,
it's time to take life anew
i won't let myself regret
what i've chosen to do

Am7 Dm
i have wasted my life on you

Bb Dm
and I will never understand
why my heart leaned to you
i will never understand
what you wanted me to do

Am7 Dm
what am i supposed to do
Track Name: wait
F Dm Bb C Bb

you don't know what it's like
getting stuck inside
you don't know what it's like to just wait

i'm trying not to mind
but i don't want to be left behind
and i am so sick of just waiting

Bb Dm C

i don't know what i'm doing here
do i just wait for trouble to appear
i am so damn tired

what the fuck is up with this place
am i another mistake to erase
has my life misfired

Bb F
i don't want to be a delay
in your life
don't think of me that way
i've got a life

Dm C F
i won't make you wait on me
i won't make you wait on me

F Dm Bb C Bb
if i fell would you hold my hand
i know you're trying to understand
but you've never had to just wait

maybe this is impossible
is it dumb of me to be this hopeful
but i think together we could wait

Bb Dm C

i could get used to being here
when you navigate it helps me steer
i feel so wired

together we could get misplaced
but that's a lot more fun than all this haste
you have set my fire

Bb F
who cares if there's a delay
in life
we have more fun that way
it's just life

Dm C F
i know you'll wait for me
i know you'll wait for me
etc.